I should have listened to everyone.Now I'm lying here in the mud somewhere in the cave and will slowly die. the embarrassing thing about the whole thing is that I was not even attacked by a monster but fell down a cliff. but now I can not end it anyway. but there is one good thing about the whole thing, fortunately I have no more relatives but am alone. so I do not make anyone sad with my action. Now I close my eyes and just wait for my death.