Rowan sees beauty in death. The Order he has sworn to obey only sees defilement.

As the reviled Caretaker of the Order, Rowan has accepted his role as a dutiful outcast because he believes it is the only way to prove his worth to the man who holds his sisters' souls as collateral. Rowan works with death. With his magic and his voice, he can absorb it and transform it, but only in ways the Order deems necessary.

Order must subdue Disorder. Reality must triumph over illusion. He is tainted and always will be. Rowan has never questioned those lessons, but that changes the night he harvests a soul that is more than human and chooses to keep it a secret. When Rowan transforms that soul into a man he names Wren, he is forced to accept that sometimes duty is a lie and illusion is the only thing you can trust.

As the fabric of the Order begins to unwind and a new kind of Disorder takes hold, Rowan will need to choose again. Stand with the Order that held him down, or forge a new path with Wren at his side. He may be the only one who can restore balance to the worlds, but only if he can find balance within himself first.

Note: This story is a character-driven fantasy romance, heavy on the romance. Emotional development and character growth take precedence over pure action. It is set in a non-heteronormative world and explores love and support between two male leads as part of the overarching story. I believe everyone deserves to see themselves in a good story and there will be representations of various sexualities, gender expressions, and identities. While the romance is a slow build, it will get VERY steamy. I will mark chapters that have explicit content.

Worth mentioning: LGBT/LGBTQ+, Danmei, BL/Boys Love, Sexual Content

The story will consist of several long arcs, so expect to be reading for a while. I have much of the story already written, so you can count on regular releases. Chapters will be typically be between 1500-2500 words so that you have something new to read more frequently. I plan on releasing chapters (or more accurately, chapter parts) at least four days per week.

I hope you like it!